Little Sister (Redefined)

I have 4 younger siblings...of these 4 is Beth who's 16 and over the last couple years i've described her to my friends as 'like me but a girl'...today i realized that she is a far stronger person than i could ever hope to be...she's been hurting and hurt by those around her...and i haven't been able to be there for her the way that i want to be...i've also been one of the people to hurt her...and for that i can't forgive myself...she has more strength, guts and passion then her 21 year old buffoon of a brother...she once looked up to me...now i look up to her

i read her blog today after she emailed me...i had no idea that she had one...and what i read in there was not the 12 yr old girl i left at home so many years ago...but a 16yr old woman who has grown more in the past 4 then i have...it let me see that my sister has needed me and i've let her down...which leaves a hole in me that burns constantly since her email and blog reading

Beth i love you...I will be here for you always...if you ever need me i'm going to get on a plane to see you...i can leave the girls in the van they'll be fine...you are far more important to me...Know that i'm very happy for you...know that you'll always have me in your corner

my sister's blog is beefburger.blogspot.com

Song of the Moment: Anything by Mayday Parade...Beth and i love them

Thank you come again
stay clean kids...there are kids looking up to you