i walk a road...i've walked it since the day i was born and will continue to walk this road til the day i die...every once in awhilei stop on the road to look around...and i notice that the scenery has changed since last i stopped to look...sure some things remain similar but never exactly the same...a taint or scratch will mar a once familiar scene...but now i stop and look and there is a blur...it's as if the steps i've taken and the steps to be taken are merging...
a battle is fought between my future self and my past self...on the one hand my past self wants to continue the way things have always gone in my life...cuz that self is afraid to change...it looks at change as conforming to the way people say life goes...my future self wants change...wants something new to thrive on because if the past was so good then it would have continued into the present and into the future or would not be the past at all...but it is...2 sides constantly pulling for different results...and the one being torn is the present...
i'm torn between the romantic and the cynic...telling myself that 'once upon a times' are kept for children but 'happily ever after' is up for grabs...it's like watching the world through rose coloured glasses that aren't my prescription...and still i stand between being the man i want to be and the boy that wants to live in never neverland...change my scenery
song of the moment: Hey Jude by The Beatles
thank you come again
stay clean kids...cuz there are a lot of potholes in the road ahead
a battle is fought between my future self and my past self...on the one hand my past self wants to continue the way things have always gone in my life...cuz that self is afraid to change...it looks at change as conforming to the way people say life goes...my future self wants change...wants something new to thrive on because if the past was so good then it would have continued into the present and into the future or would not be the past at all...but it is...2 sides constantly pulling for different results...and the one being torn is the present...
i'm torn between the romantic and the cynic...telling myself that 'once upon a times' are kept for children but 'happily ever after' is up for grabs...it's like watching the world through rose coloured glasses that aren't my prescription...and still i stand between being the man i want to be and the boy that wants to live in never neverland...change my scenery
song of the moment: Hey Jude by The Beatles
thank you come again
stay clean kids...cuz there are a lot of potholes in the road ahead
posted by amateur&prose at 6:09 PM
2 Comments:
If there is one thing that i have learnt. is that change hurts. especially if you didn't want it.
the road you walk might have potholes that will make you trip, but you will always have a friend thats walking the road beside yours being ready to come over and pick you up.
-matt
so...my dear eric. if you're going to want change for the better, you're going to actually have to do something in order for it to actually happen. of course the easiest way is to keep going how you have, but as you know deep inside...that isn't going to work. I guess it comes down to what you want the most--to keep going as you have, or actually strive towards something that's within your reach.
cynical...well totally understandable considering everything...but yet you can't really believe that. just because you're afraid doesn't mean that it's not possible, or unattainable. leave what's in the past in the past, and ask God for guidance for your next steps. It's really the only way to get past things.
if you need support...i'm here
if you need care...i'm here
if you want to let me in...i'm here
if you want to talk...i'll listen
if you don't have anything to say...i'll be your silent company
--quiet
p.s. potholes aren't all that bad...they may be annoying, but swerving to miss them makes the road all that more interesting ;)
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