Dream On

Rarely Remembered...

i used to have the same dream over and over again...dream is the wrong word, nightmare...constant visits of ghosts relationship past you could say...for months on end the parade went through my head...and i'd wake up and play it through my head wondering if it were all true...but that dream has long past...

it felt so much like it was real...the smile that stops my heart...a head on my shoulder, an arm around your waist...the words that cause me to have only you going through my brain...it was simple, comfortable, alluring...it was like i could actually touch it, taste it...but when i woke up i knew for now it was just a dream...

But Never Forgotten...

a switch was flipped...i don't know when i don't know how but it happened...once there was open conversation, a feeling of trust...but now it seems to be taken by cloak and dagger...a pulling away...i'm trying to find the answers...but it leaves my mind in a tailspin...

i'm not sure what i'm looking for...but i know what i'm not looking for...but my heart doesn't seem to get that message...good ole heart

Something Corporate

i was 15 when a friend of mine said 'eric, you gotta hear this band...They're phenomenal' and he gave me 'leaving through the window' by something corporate...and that entire album remains to be one of my favourites to this day...Globes and Maps a favourite song...but the one that speaks to me now is Hurricane...

standing there with your smile blinding
your eyes from seeing
my face as i'm dying
to figure out a girl...

it's violent and chaotic, my head is spinning and sometimes i just feel sick, and around and round i go...but there in the middle is a central point, that all of this wages around...and i wish i could figure this out...everything is said in cloak and dagger...we know what's on the line...

so pull me under your weather patterns
your cold fronts and the rain don't matter
cuz the sunburn's what i needed...

i'm not afraid to use words like love or commit...you didn't see the rainbow without a little rain...you didn't know how to win unless you've lost...i want to win, but if that means i take a chance at losing, that's worth the risk...

well maybe this time i can follow through
feel complete
stop paying dues
stop the rain from falling
keep my oceans calm
this time i know nothing's wrong...

(Sub)Conscious

i wrote you this song, but it won't be enough
to tell you in you all the things that i love
from the smell of your hair, to the whip of your tongue,
you can't carry a tune but you still sing-along

wherever i go i'm not alone
you have my heart, therefore you are my home
and it's no surprise, from that look in your eyes
i'm going to be wrong the rest of the days of my life
i don't mind

and the other shoe drops...it's like an anvil...its weight crushing...i never stood a chance did i?

if you want to be with someone, don't plan to be with them...be with them

Hopeless Romantic (i'm the former)

i've never been good at love and that comes to no surprise
it's never been one of my talents to compromise
it feels like everyday i take another step
farther away

i'm over sensitive if that's hard to believe
and have a problem of wearing my heart on my sleeve
my thoughts i like to guard like their fort knox
but i'm working on that

teach me to fly, i want to soar
teach me to see things like i never have before
teach me to love like i've got nothing else
to give you my heart, to give you myself

everyday without you is just another in the dark
my heart 's a fire ready to burn all it needs is its spark

teach me to fly, i want to soar
teach me to see things like i never have before
teach me to love like i've got nothing else
to give you my heart, to give you myself

teach me to fly
teach me to love