Thursday, March 29, 2007

Look Ahead at the Weekend

So as it stands now here's what i have on my plate for the weekend...i will find out if i have/haven't been rehired for the RA job...i really hope i get it but we'll see i know that it's hard to decide such things...I have a meeting to talk about my capstone/SOUL...i don't really care either way...but i look forward to doing's a new experience...Alyson's capstone is tomorrow night which i look forward too as well as the Heaven and Hell party...Saturday brings The Concordia Awards Night as well as Bryn's bday party at the Union...whereever that is...but i'll find my way there...Sunday is the my last Sunday night praise for the year...which is an up and a down...and after that it's another week...but that's my look ahead to the weekend...tune in on Monday to find out what all went down in NorthKoreaTown

Song of the Moment: Lead Me On by Teena's from Top Gun...this is my throw back

Thank you come again
Stay Clean Kids...i'll doing laundry at some point soon i know it

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Not Knowing What to Say

So i've been told repeatedly that i need to update this...and i've sat there and i agree you're so bored right now that you're checking my blog...i might as well reward you with something to read adn think about...or sluff it off and move on to the next blog on your list...but what to say

Do i talk about the Songwriter's Competition on Saturday night which will be awesome...and i'm greatly looking forward to it...I have new stuff that i think will be really good...but then again i'm being really critical of my own work...cuz it's mine and i want it to be a representation of myself...cuz i can't sing a song that's hollow and meaningless...these songs are parts of me that i share with everyone else...if you give nothing you get nothing...fact of life

Do i talk about how i'm not looking forward to a summer with my family...not that i don't love them don't get me's just that my family is drama all the time...constantly...i don't know how i got out of that house with my sanity...i'm not sure if did...maybe i didn't i don't know i miss them...i really do going to school 3000 miles away and why i did it is becoming a question to myself

Do i talk about how i have no desire to do what i feel i'm being called to do...scratch that very little desire i see that...i see that i can do a lot of good and that i'd be good at it...but do i deny myself and those around a greater good if i do what i really want to...those who can't do teach...if i'm teaching the Word of God what does that say about what i can't do...It's like answering a call that you never wanted to pick up at all...i have caller id...i see i don't want to but i do it anyways...why? cuz i have nothing else to do

Do i talk about the paranoid person i've become...what has happened that i can't take a person at her word...but everytime something happens that looks like it's heading away from me i have to ask...why can't i just have a little faith...that everything will work...why am i paranoid of losing something i had for a short time anyways...why have the words 'it's complicated' stir my stomach so...why can't we just be honest and stop hiding...what do we gain from that...less hurt...i say bullshit to that...i hide myself all the time and end up hurting...why

Do i talk about how i sit here and see nothing...when everyone else sees something bigger and grander than i do...a friend told me that one day i'm going to explode and let it all out...something i've often told people...but when he said he hoped he was there for it how do you say that there's nothing that will explode...i have no fuse

Well maybe i do have something to talk you?

Song of the Moment: Open Your Eyes by Snow Patrol

Thank you come again
Stay clean kids

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

I've Done the Unthinkable

I've done what i said i'd never do...what i made fun of others for for the past few months...I'VE JOINED FACEBOOK...there i said's ok i'll go on living just differently that's all...change is not bad...the lutheran inside of me jsut cringed and shrank into the corner but he'll survive...really 1500 under the Catholic church and he'll be able to hear the word 'change'...but the word 'choose' or 'choice' forget about it

I've also been sick which sucks cuz it happens so infrequently that i'm never prepared for it...jeez and i feel bad cuz i'm not the kind of person that usually excepts a lot of help from others but i would never say no when it comes from a pretty girl...anyways i'm almost out...i feel a lot better and moving on

I'm going to get the new Relient K album today...i'm really looking forward to this...i love these guys how can i not...and on another note...i'm still not speaking to the 2 people that went to the Meatloaf concert on sunday's not that you went it's that you rubbed it in my can't actually be mad

Quote of the Day:"Nobody move." Famous Last words of Steve as he not only blows himself up but me as well
Song of the Moment: Hello McFly...i'm throwing back to Relient K b4 i pick up the new one

Thank You Come Again
Stay Clean Kids...or you'll get sick...but i'm i'm not sure how it all works out